Hey wat up Xangur Users!! How have you all been??? Hopefully you guys are doing good...wow it's been a min since I wrote on here...well not much has happened since the last time I wrote on here...but what has happened let's see...I had a boyfriend...umm got a car...sister bought a house...

Lets start off with me havin a boyfriend for a while...i did it again...i shouldn't have dated someone I worked with...but i did..it was great at first...but every relationship starts off that way...i thought it was great...nd jus maybe he was worth me lettin my guard down but no...i was wrong...cuz once i let it down...it all turned downhill...the fall came out of no where too...cuz i thought we were all happy too...but i guess i was wrong...but while it lasted it was good...but i guess it was time for me to jus feel a glimpse of happiness...but that was that...

Next my sister got a house...finally someone in the family got their own house...then wen were movin into the house the day before i got a car...yay finally got a car...but that's bout it that's happened in my life so far...

oh i made a few new friends...nd me and jonathan are slowly becomin friends okay...ohh nd Roseann moved up here...which is koo...but i'll write more next time...

*take cares*

damn one of those things i wish would happen to me

boy and girl talking on the phone...

-Girl
I love you.


- Boy:
Yeah I know everyone does!


-Girl:
Really?


- Boy:
Yeah...everyone of my friends that are girls tell me that everyday.


- Girl:
Oh...but am I only your friend?


- Boy:
No...you're my girlfriend...why?


- Girl:
So when I say I love you I really do mean it.


- Boy:
Yeah I know you do mean it...its just that you dont need to tell me that you love me anymore cuz I know you love me since the day we been together and i love you more each and everyday.


- Girl:
......


- Boy:
So wanna go somewhere tonight for our 7th anniversary?


- Girl:
Yeah...where?


- Boy:
I dont know...maybe movie then dinner?


-Girl:
Ok.


- Boy:
Ill pick you up after I get off and get ready ok?


- Girl:
Ok. What time do you get off?


- Boy:
In 2 hours and then I gotta go home and yeah get ready which takes about 15-20 mintues...


-Girl:
hey...I thought you didnt have work today...


- Boy:
One of my co-workers called in sick.


- Girl:
Oh okay! So ill see you around 7:30 then?


- Boy:
Yeah! and babe?


- Girl:
Yeah?


- Boy:
I love you.


- Girl:
I love you too!


- Boy:
Ok my manager is like looking at me so yeah.... i gotta go.


- Girl:
Ok bye.


- Boy:
Bye.


****************************


2 hours later...


The guy drives to his girlfriends house and walks up to the door and rings bell.


- Girl:
Hey! (gives a kiss to her boyfriend)


- Boy:
Wassup...you ready?


- Girl:
Um...wait...let me get my bag and we can go ok?


- Boy:
Ok.


They both watched a movie and ate dinner...once they were done eating they head back to the car but before she got into the car...


- Boy:
Wait! Can I blind fold you?


- Girl:
Why??!


- Boy:
Its a suprise.


- Girl:
What kind of suprise?


- Boy:
A big one.


- Girl:
Okay but only if you promise me that you will hold my hand while we're driving.


- Boy:
I promise.


- Girl:
Ok blind fold me...


So they drove off...........and then they stoped.


- Boy:
Ok we're here!


-Girl:
Where?


- Boy:
Wait let me walk you to the place!


- Girl:
What place?


- Boy:
Somewhere! (and gives a kiss to her on the lips)


- Girl:
Baby!...


The boy walks her to the place.


- Boy:
Ok...let me take the blind fold off.


- Girl:
Where are we?


He takes it off her and she opens her eyes and sees the view of the city and at that same spot...that's where he first asked her to be his girlfriend....


- Girl:
Omg...(tears come down)


- Boy:
Why are you crying?


- Girl:
This is where you first asked me out...


- Boy:
What are you doing the rest of your life? (he asked on his knees and after he says that...behind him...in the air it says "Will you marry me?" in fireworks)


- Girl:
(tears come down faster)


- Boy:
I wasnt at work when you called me...I was planning this whole thing!


- Girl:
Get up!


- Boy:
Yeah?


- Girl:
(kisses him)


- Boy:
Is that a yes or a no?


- Girl:
Yes.
?

All I want

Hey Xangur Users!
How have I been since the last time I wrote in here is the question??? Well I'm doin pretty good...I'm still plannin on goin into the military but I don't want to leave til 2008...I'm still looking for a job...I had an interview with Sony on the 29TH of March...I thought it went pretty good cuz I was in there for almost an hour but they haven't called me back so I don't think I got the job but I hope I'm wrong and I do get the job...
Now the famous topic of my entries...Randy....well I talked to him on wat the 26TH of Feb. and he said he wasn't sure if he still had feelings for me...and so I didn't talk to him for a while and I called him on the 24th of March to tell him that I sent the Stitch I bought him for his birthday and that he would be gettin on Thursday or Friday...so I tried to call him on Monday and Tuesday to see if he got Stitch but he didn't answer my calls...so then on the 5th of April I wrote my feelings for him down in my journal and I was hoping to read it to him but I ended up sendin it in a message...here's wat I wrote...

"There are some things I want you to know that I can't seem to put into words when I talk to you so I decided to pick a pen and paper up so I could tell you everything I feel inside...
You know I still care for you right? I never stopped caring for you even tho' you don't feel the same bout me anymore...I know what I did in the past was bad and wrong but if you believe me or not I've learned from it. Ever since we started talking til now I've learned a lot about myself and what I wanted out of my life...Honestly, I was afraid of commitment before I met you but you probably could tell by my stories...I would do anything and everything or find a reason to end a relationship...I didn't want anyone close to my heart cuz I was afraid of geting hurt but ended up hurting myself and people I cared about...but when I started having feelings for you, I didn't want to be alone anymore, I was willing to let you get close to my heart if that's the road it was going and you've given me a feeling of happines that I don't want to let go of...I know you probably don't believe me when I say that I can't talk to any other guy the way I've talked to you but it's true...
You asked me once what it was about you that sets you apart from other guys and I couldn't answer it but now I'm goin to give you my answer...it's cuz you stuck by me through all my whinning and complaining...most guys get really annoyed of it...I can be myself around you...I don't have to pretend to be somebody else...I love the fact that your family oriented...cuz even tho' we have hella family drama, I love being around them...you actually listened to what I had to say about anything...most guys only listen to part of it...when I was down you always seemed to be able to turn my frown upside down like nothin'...
I know I've told you this before but I'm goin to tell you again...I love the way you would snore while we slept on the phone...it was music to my ear...don't ask me why but it was and I miss it...I love the fact that you sang to me those 2 times even though you didn't like to and you thought you couldn't sing but it's the fact that you did it for me and no one else...that's what made it so special...you know what I miss a lot...it's your character impressions they always had me laughing so hard I'd cry...and if you think these are all ordinary things they're not to me...they're memories I will always cherish...I almost forgot how you helped me boost my self-esteem...when you told me you believed in me...I was shocked cuz I didn't think anyone could believe in me more than I believed in myself...I also miss our long conversations...I know you probably moved on and only see me as a friend now but I just wanted you to know how I feel bout you even if you don't feel the same anymore...I know I probably sound sprung but it's okay...I didn't wanna hold things back and regret not ever telling you how I felt..."

I probably sound sprung but I don't care cuz that's how I truly feel about him...he's helped me grow so much and see things at a different perspective...most importantly He was there for me and he helped me overcome my fear of commitment...he's helped me see what I was doing in the past was wrong and hurting people I cared about but most of all I was hurting myself by doing those things...if anything he's been the greatest friend of all...don't get me wrong I have a lot of great friends that have tried makin me see what he's made me see but I'm jus too stubborn and I wasn't ready to accept the truth and open my eyes to see it...I'm thankful for everyone has been there for me...I really appreciate all those people who have been there for me and have given me advice...even tho' times I may not seem like I listened cuz I didn't take the advice in but really I do listen it's just I may not be ready to accept the truth even tho' I want to hear the truth sometimes I just don't want to realize it...well this is a long entry so til next time...

bye for now...

thoughts and words written by,
-aMiE-

Thinkin of: Randy S.A.
Mood: Hopeful
Song: P.S. I'm Still Not Over You-Rihanna